Day 19 March 31

Just got back from the doctor, my back is bothering me again and I am in alot of pain!  My husband and I have talked about this being a new chapter for us, but I have spent the last few nights feeling de-ja-vue.   Forgetting that I need to trust in the Lord, it is His new Chapter for us, His plan, and He has big shoulders right?

Maybe it's time for that box to be opened a little more, you see the last four years my families story almost sounds unbelievable.  My daughter said that when she gets close to friends at college and finally tells them the whole story they either cry and give her a hug and say " I'm sorry" or say "no way".  Even to us it sometimes seems hard to believe.  But it has only brought the five of us closer.

Most recently, I have been hospitalized in the local hospital's psychiatriac unit four times in the last  year.  Three of those with suicide attempts.  I have told very few people.  Most that know me, would find it hard to believe.  I was first diagnosed with situational depression.  Enough said for today.  That alone was so hard.  Lord,  I just keep Praising You Thru This Storm...