Today is the day I have formed a habit, Day 21! Unfortunately today is also the day I am in a funk. The last time I was hospitalized, I had a great talk with a Chaplain from the hospital. By the way, my view on anyone's struggle, diagnosis, etc., with any type of mental illness is that it is no different than anyone else with a chronic disease that sometimes needs hospitalizations to get medications back into balance. There seems to be such a misunderstanding. It was big for me to start with my story on this blog, knowing anyone can read it. I have tried to keep it quiet for along time. I also have so much more to tell.
Anyway, I had this great conversation with this Chaplain, who happened to have dealt in her life with some of the same things I have. She suggested to me that when I have trouble with anxiety, to go ahead and let the feelings come, feel them, and then let them go. Boy is it the let them go part that I am having trouble with!
Since my illness, I have spent a little more time on my facebook page. Because I tend to stay in the house and seclude myself, this has been a nice way to reconnect with people. My views on it are to post things that are in support of my friends and family, things that people might enjoy or laugh at, and maybe make little comments that keep people up to date on what I am doing. So far so good, til today. I reposted an item, that was in support of the troops, someone told me it was a scam, so I took it down. Then I reposted it again because of my beliefs in facebook. I am in support of the troops. Big Mistake! The comments came. And guess what, the feelings came, I felt them, and I CAN'T let them go. I am still learning. I will always need you Lord. I will keep Praising You Thru This Storm...
